I've been gone a while and the first post I put up is me being pissed off.

Sorry about that but I don't care anymore.

So, I haven't posted in a while. I don't have much to write about now-a-days. Nothing really important anyways.

My boyfriend finally got a job, he works 2:30-11 Saturday-Wednesday... Yes, he has Thursdays and Fridays off. It was really hard while he was in training because he ended up changing his training schedule to 4:30pm-1am. Oh well. It's money I guess.

I still haven't found a job but I started a youtube account. Trying to think of video ideas but having a hard time thinking of any. ((OOOH... YAY!!! Ha. Sorry. I'm listening to the songs on my phone and one of my favorite songs came on... "When Water Comes To Life" by Cloud Cult.))

I know none of you know me or really care to hear anything I have to say but eh... It's whatev.

My dog's getting much better, his mange is starting to clear up. Me and my boyfriend actually took him trick-or-treating. XD He was dressed as a squirrel. Yep.

I guess I should write something nice and productive... But then again, why should I? I can write about whatever I want to write about. Gawd I'm hungry right now. So, why is it that when I try to think of something to write about I just can't. I mean, it used ot be that I could sit down and have the mind set that I was just going to start writing, and that's how it worked. I'd sit down with a notebook and pen or my laptop and I'd just start writing. Now-a-days I can't even do that.

So, can someone please explain to me why the hell my 18th birthday is apparently so important???!!! I mean, come on... Why does it matter? It's just another year right? I mean, I can't drive, I don't have a car, I don't have a job... but whatev. Everyone wants me to make it a big deal. Guess I should do something but I can't think of anything...

Anyways, guess that's it for the night...

Until next time...

Shiori Tatsumi. <3

http://www.youtube.com/user/ShiorisPlayground

This is about and for a guy I know....

When am I going to spin this web of lies?

I suppose right now.

Truth: When was it that I realized I had made a mistake by not claiming you as mine? Oh, I'd say about two days after I found out you had left for California. Now though, I don't see it as too much of a mistake because, well, as you know I found a great guy that loves me with everything he has. I'm not saying you wouldn't love me just as much.... But... I found this guy through your comments, I found him, your friend after you had left. You have no idea how I love him and how glad I am to have found him.

Lie: It didn't hurt at all when you told me you were leaving. It didn't hurt at all when I heard your voice so long after we hadn't talked and you said you had found someone. I was happy for you. Really I was... I didn't wish I was with you. I didn't want you around at all.

Truth: I listened to the song "Heels Over Head" by Boys Like Girls and there's a line in it that I could really relate to..... "thinkin how you left me for dead, California bound, and when you hit the coast maybe you'll finally see and then you'll turn it all around and you'll come back to me." Oh great... Now it's onto "Hero/Heroine" by Boys Like Girls... "I never thought you could break me apart, I keep a sinister smile and a hold on my heart" and "it's not complicated, I was so jaded." Oh how I wish today wasn't so full of things making me think of you, making me miss you. I haven't missed you since we quit talking last... I'm sorry, I miss you again, and I know how much you hate me, so let me go now.

Lie: I don't ever wonder how things might of been. I never miss you. I never wish to hear your voice again and I never wish I could have at least gotten a hug. I never wish there was a way to make things up to you. I never wish we could be friends. I NEVER wish that you had loved me and told me before you left and I met my guy.

Truth: I know what you'ld say to this if you were to read it. I know that you'ld think I'm a pathetic loser who can't make up her mind. I also know that you'd state that everything is my fault though it's quite the opposite. Actually, it's somewhere in the middle. I do miss you and I do still have very strong feelings for you but their not enough for me to give up what I have going on now. It's not enough for me to give up a relationship I've been in for almost a year now. Maybe you should listen to what I have to say for a while. How about that? Don't go telling me this or that because I say something you don't like. I'm sick and tired of all that crap. I'm sorry, but I'm not going to listen to it anymore.

Lie: I have nothinng more to say.......

Truth: Goodbye.